I walked out of the house with two different earrings in today. 

And it wasn’t because I was rushing or frazzled trying to get kids out of the door to activities. 

Instead, it is telling evidence of my current, untethered existence. 

This unfamiliar place of a grieving daughter and yet, still a mother. 

How am I expected to grieve when there’s cheer and gymnastics practice at 5 and 6? Horse riding and volleyball at 5:30?

How does one grieve between doctor’s appointments and physical therapy? 

How does one keep house and prepare for the Easter Bunny’s arrival?

By absentmindedly fitting mismatched earrings. 

By crying at stop lights or whenever someone looks me in the eye and asks, “How are you?”

By comforting my children and carrying on like mothers do.