It’s been a lifetime of regret
For a crime I never committed.
I was born.
The illegitimate of a love affair.
Forever, a child, apologizing for my existence.
I’m so sorry.
And yet, Here I Am.
You’ve welcomed and accepted me,
Flaws, painful memories and all.
I’m so sorry.
I was born.
It’s been a lifetime.
But, here I am.
Here I am.
In my dreams, I saw him all along.
He was kind and funny.
Simple and interesting.
He wasn’t intimidated by me; he could hold his own.
He was cultured but open.
Athletically competitive, but not to a fault.
He would make the best daddy ever and I knew it immediately.
His name was Emmett Carawan and he’s who I had been looking for all along.
Someone who would love me wholly.
Someone whom I could adore.
Someone I could live forever with and for.
His name is Emmett Carawan and today, we celebrate just 10 years of a lifetime of marriage together.
Lucky us.
Lucky them.
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